I'm not real sure if it's the pressure of getting ready for my solo show this coming Saturday or not, but I feel like I've gotten back a part of me that's been gone for a while. Ever since my heart surgery, I feel like I've struggled to be creative. I like the art that I've been doing for the yard, but honestly haven't done much art for sale that I've liked a whole lot. Most of it was a redo of previous ideas. Lately though something has changed.
I feel like my mind has awakened a bit. I was at a Santana concert a couple weeks ago. They performed "Imagine" by John Lennon. His wife, Cindy Blackman Santana, who is an amazing drummer, sang it. During the song, I got an idea for a painting. That hasn't happened in a long time.
I've had several new ideas that I look forward to showing this coming weekend. New ideas, I've been struggling to get those back for a while now. I hope they keep coming.
I've been kinda missing doing shows lately. I miss seeing a lot of my friends out there. There just aren't any good local shows that I know of that are still around. I refuse to apply to a show where I have to pay a jury fee. If they want me they can invite me. I approached shows differently than a lot of people. My goal was for people to view me as the art, the stuff I made was souvenirs. You come meet me, take home something if you want and I tried to NEVER, no matter how broke I was, act like I needed the money. I miss being around people. I get my energy from people.
Today while I was switching out summer/winter clothes in my closet, I came across the Glow in the Dark jacket that I used to wear, but haven't in a couple of years. The other day I came across one of my original "Free Hugs" shirts and a couple pair of gold painted shoes. I put them back a while back for when I open the "SamG Land Museum of all things SamG." I kinda miss that guy that used to wear them. I've thought a lot about how he was probably the part of me that died when I had my heart incident. Maybe part of him needed to.
Anyways, who knows maybe I'll pull that Glow in the Dark jacket out and wear it sometime. And I'd have to wear the matching Glow in the Dark Gold Shoes. The world could always use more hugs too. Just wondering if maybe the future shouldn't start with where the past left off. Just have to wait and see.
SamG
